Recently, the news was about Kid Cudi and Kanye West twitter rant while now, Scott Mescudi (Kid Cudi’s real name) has spilled out that he’s into rehab for “anxiety, depression and suicidal urges.”
He revealed in Facebook to his fans on his page “It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans. Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.”
Cudi further continues, “I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself. I am simplya damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. There are violent storm inside of my heart at all times. I don’t know what peace feels like. I don’t know how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it.”
He further added, “I can’t make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and I’m tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, I’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. Its time I fix me. I’m nervous but I may get through this.”
He finally adds, “I won’t be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery. Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like s–t, I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry.”
Let us hope the best for the hip-hop star!